What would you be doing on your first birthday, Koen? Toddling around in our living room? Snuggling with us in bed? Chasing Asa? Perhaps ripping open your very first birthday present.
What outfit would you be wearing – a Riders shirt, the red outfit that says “Awesome, like my dad” or a light-coloured “Mommies sweetest boy” dress shirt with a pair of cute shorts?
And little would you know we would have a delicious cake ready for you for later. With one candle, right in the middle. And your name written on the cake. We’d have some people over because you shouldn’t finish that cake all by yourself!
Today, May 7, 2014, is such a beautiful day. The sun is out. Fragrant flowers and cards fill our living room. Candles are lit. Messages on Facebook congratulating you and remembering you.
Here’s to many, many more birthday’s, Koen. We love you very much!
Mom, Dad, Sam (& Asa)
… little did we know how our lives would change the very next day. Nothing could’ve prepared us. Nobody prepared us. It just happened.
Through grieving, family, friends, time and more grieving, family, friends we got here. A year later. I still can’t really believe what actually happened. That so much joy and happiness could be ripped out in a moment’s notice and replaced with a void that can never be filled again. I can’t believe Koen is not here with us all today.
But we can still hold him in our hearts and especially on his birthday tomorrow, we will remember and celebrate him. And we would love for all of you to join us on his special day in your thoughts and in your hearts.
I can’t help but think that tomorrow I will wake up to find him in his crib and that the past year was just a really terrible dream.
Sleep well, sweet little Koen. Tomorrow is your big day.
In memory of our boy Koen, we walked the Vancouver Sun Run on Sunday, April 27 2014.
Out the window of the plane. There was Koen, just letting me know he was there. I knew it was him, right away. The way the colors danced across the sky in the dark, right there beside me.
Inspired by Dr. Joanne Cacciatore from the MISSFoundation (missfoundation.org/about/joanne-cacciatore), we decided to take off our hiking boots in honour of Koen during our summer trip to Austria and hike the last leg of our ascent barefoot.
You all have shown so much support and love to us over the past few weeks. We are forever grateful of your kindness, be it a phone call, a visit, a card, flowers, an email, a text message or a post on this website. It is very helpful to our healing to know so many people around us are there for us.
So thank-you to our families, friends, neighbors, colleagues and acquaintances.
We don’t know how we would get through this if it wasn’t for you all. And we’ll need you in the days, weeks and even months coming. We know you won’t forget about us and we won’t forget about you.
Peter & Karla
A memorial service will be held in loving memory of Koen this Friday, May 17, 2013 at 10am in the chapel at the Vancouver Memorial Services and Crematorium, 5505 Fraser Street, Vancouver.
We welcome family, friends and colleagues who would like an opportunity to join us in saying goodbye to Koen.
A friend of ours found this poem and passed it on. Although we’re not overly religious, the poem touched our hearts:
Our sweet little angel Koen Joseph Muyzers was stillborn at Women’s Hospital in Vancouver, BC, Canada on May 7, 2013 at 5:48pm, weighing 3,790 kg (8lb 6oz) and 54,5 cm (21.5 inches) long.
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